By this time last year, I was looking forward to my valedictory service. Planning what I would wear, my accessories, turn up with friends, shoes and the likes. It was fun!
By February, I was looking forward to serving my father’s land, wash, rinse, repeat with the preparations.
By March, I was at camp when it was abruptly cut short due to the corona virus, fast forward to the year 2021. Today is 7th of January and it’s my dad’s birthday. I surprised him with a gift I got him, I surprised myself even. If someone had said “V, you’d do the things you’re doing now”, I would have imagined it, wanted it but not certain it would happen. I mean, so many things happened in the year 2020 and for most of it, I felt left out. I was watching things happen and I couldn’t make anything happen for myself, I could only wish and wishes don’t come true without actions.
Things began to change by October. By this time, I was serving in a village called Komu, located in Itesiwaju local government, Oyo state. The lifestyle there forced me to be a part of the bigger picture and not look from the sideline. There, I ventured into YouTube. I didn’t have the editing skills, I loved to talk about different topics but I lacked the creativity needed to put things in place. It was discouraging posting videos and not getting any views. I read articles about getting traffic on your site and that shit didn’t work (I didn’t have the budget for it). Anyways, I stopped posting, deleted everything and I figure since I love talking and gesturing, I would get back into it…YouTube will always be there.
Also, I started Cryptocurrency, albeit late but it was a good trial and it worked. Though with the way things are, I regret not starting earlier. I didn’t trust it then but my mind is not ready to allow me that leeway (I for be millionaire by now o, lol).
The final thing I ventured into was blogging. This I started in December and I’m happy I got back into writing. It was something I did really well for a period in my life, all of a sudden, I stopped. I scribbled here and there for the longest time; I doodled, drew, shaded, kept a journal, anything but pursue writing. It ended December when I decided to go back to my first love, it’s a work in progress and I’m hanging on for the ride.
And all the little things that took place in my life that has shaped my view now.
See where I’m coming from?
That’s why it gives me so much joy to do things I never allowed myself do in the past. The dramatic turn 2020 took made me realize how little I was living and how precious life could be if I opened myself to its beauty. I don’t want to do that anymore, I spent so much time in my head that reality scared me, people scared me, stepping out of my house was like chore, a hard one. I don’t want that person anymore, I want to experience things, go out, travel, break someone’s heart (a broken heart doesn’t look good on me), and most of all, excel at living.
So that’s my stance for 2021…Live, because I know all about not living.
Do I find myself blank at times, yea. Uncertain about life, sure! (You see what I did there, *wink)
But I remind myself that I’m going through with it, that growth is important, that change is necessary and that the holyspirit will always be with me, sticking up for me like always so fear is not an option. That makes living so much more. This 2021, flip the script around and discover the best in you.
Happy New Year!💋
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